Things I cannot Say Outloud

My life is full of many things. Things that people can see and other things that people cannot see. Many people ask me "what I do" all the time. There are things that I can tell them, things they can see. And then there are the things that are mine. I wish I could tell them.

I have said many times before to people "you don't really know who I am". There are many things that people don't know about me. I re-read what I wrote about why I did what I did. There are do many things left out. They are hand-picked, carefully to be acceptable.

I know that there is a limit to what I can say or do or be. Because otherwise our family will devide again. It is very lonely. The burden can be too much to bear alone. But Heavenly Father is helping me. I wish it would all just go away. There real line to quote says "I tried and tried and tried only to fail." I am succeeding in my own personal battle and failing with the family. I cannot change what is.